Author: Xenia Bordukowa Pattberg

In A Blink Of An Eye

Have you ever thought about a window when you thought of home? I don’t mean the metaphorical window, but the very real thing that is not meant to be looked at, but rather looked through to see something else. Or to be seen (if you’re that kind of person). We don’t really notice it when it’s there, our attention always goes towards the object that we see through that hole in the wall. But the window is there, it’s both opening up our gaze to the space outside our four walls, and shaping it for us from a very...

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Home Where I Can Be Foreign

Interview with artist Marta Colpani Having weathered several technological glitches that threatened to keep us apart, Marta Colpani and I are sipping coffee together at the Stedelijk museum – a small white square table between us, still an empty canvas on which we may or may not be able to establish common ground. I can’t help but scan the setting, reflecting on the fact that a large part of Marta Colpani’s work to date is centred around the “perceptive and affective engagement with the environment”, where the individual experience of it serves as a process to discover one’s place...

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Communities – Part 1: The Pulse of Europe

This coming Sunday at 2pm I will once more, together with my kids, join the crowd, which gathers weekly in front of Amsterdam’s Rijksmuseum. “The Pulse of Europe”, as the movement is called, is an explicitly non-party, non-religious grassroots movement, originated in Frankfurt/Germany. Just in a few months since its initiation it has spread to 40 European cities, including Paris, Vienna, and Amsterdam. Its aim: To make the pro-European voice audible again, thus counterbalancing the Brexiters and the Eurosceptics of recent times. And sure enough, this city itself has such a diverse cultural identity that it seems like one...

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How To Return

My first attempt to return home was close to disastrous, and stayed my last. At the age of twenty-three I moved to Moscow, and back in with my father. After only two months in my old bed I couldn’t pack things fast enough to return… home again.

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  • Hiraeth Ep. 24- Calmness Amidst Chaos 20/11/2017
    Francesca Aikman is an artist from the North West of England who lives and works in Amsterdam. She arrived directly after finishing a degree in Fine Art at university in Preston to take up a residency at OT303, and, without her really realizing or planning it, Amsterdam became home.  Recently, she has been making small, […]
  • Hiraeth Ep. 23- A Moving Legacy 02/10/2017
    In this episode, Sarah talks to Lucille Abendanon who has three nationalities and has lived in six different countries. Lucille shares not only her own story of movement, but also the incredible stories of her Dutch Oma and Opa who survived life in Japanese concentration camps. Lucille is a writer and values the power of […]
  • Hiraeth Ep 22- Crimea Calling 18/09/2017
    In 2010, Masha and her brother inherited her grandparents’ home in Crimea, the place of her birth. Last Spring, she traveled there and felt a tug to return and explore her roots. She has long felt the pull between lands and questioned her sense of identity- having lived in the US since the age of […]
  • Hiraeth Ep. 21 - Embrace The Journey 04/09/2017
    I met Cynthia on instagram- While she runs the very serious business of recruitment and coaching for expats through her company Xpath Global Careers, she also happens to run a hilarious instagram account called @expatmemes which pokes fun at the trials and tribulations of international life...  Many times, I found myself commenting (or at least thinking) […]
  • Hiraeth Ep. 20- Summer Wrap Up 21/07/2017
    In this episode, we talk about art, politics and plans for the future.  This episode is a series of audio clips from team meetings and conversations recorded over the past six months.  It is a reflection on the year so far- as we wrap up for Summer vacation.  We will resume in the Fall, and […]

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